So like Sex Cox says labels aren’t good thing, but does sound like even though you have a girlfriend, you rather be with a man. What seems to be holding you back is more the stigma, what would your family or friends think, depends on your upbringing or locale, but most people these days don’t care which way you butter your bread.
And your parents in the end just want see you happy, if they think your gay already well it wont be a shock to them. I am sort similar situation and so far kepted it in the closet, so it is possible to try before you buy into the whole thing and see if it really what you want out of life. Generally the easiest place to start is gay websites, where you can be discreet, other options tend to be more out there, gay bars, beats etc. Lastly if you got gay porn well, only gay guys do, another thing when watching straight porn and some sweetie being nicely laid, are you looking at the guy and wishing you were the sweetie in the pic, well then go get yourself a boyfriend.” BLONDSHY