Hi, Mr Cox, before I read your blog I thought I was straight, but now I’m not so sure as I really do want to stroke and suck the cocks pictured. Trouble is I’m too afraid to set up a meeting with a dude. Also I’m married and don’t want to fuck myself up with guilt. Not much anyone can do I guess, but if you can suggest a way of introducing me to dick, please do. I like the idea of the 3 circle group meetings that you’ve had – I could cope with that more easily than 1 to 1. I’ll never be content until I’ve sucked a man off. And at 48 I’m not getting any younger. Although I have no experience with other men, other than being propositioned twice in lavatories, this is one of my favourite sexual fantasies: I meet a mature man who I realise is gay. We have a few drinks and I begin to wonder about making love with him. We go back to his place, or a hotel. We both shower and get into bed naked. We cuddle up together like two spoons my arms around him and my crotch pressed to him bum. I kiss his neck and shoulders and I let my hand drift down to his crotch. His cock is hard and I curl my finger softly around it and very lightly masturbate him. Meanwhile my own cock becomes very stiff too and he reaches around to stroke my balls. He tells me he has a friend who would like to join us. I agree and he picks up the phone. In a few minutes his friend arrives. I cum imagining the first guy sucking me off whilst I suck off his friend. This fantasy gives me a very strong orgasm. Sometimes the two guys in my fantasy are of different races. Sometimes they tie me up and take their pleasure with me, but they are never aggressive or violent as it is just a game.Cheers, John.